If I'm honest with myself..

I don’t want to wake up one day, look back on my life and say, “what have I accomplished?”

I wasted too much time trying to please others, letting irrelevant people control my life and emotions, made myself sick trying to perfect my body, keeping up the image of being this happy, joyful, not-a-care-in-the-world girl. 

I've got demons in my closet, a black heart buried deep, and scars physically and emotionally to prove I’m not perfect.

Life is too short to try and be anything other than yourself. 

I've spent so long trying to be what everyone around me wanted me to be. 

I’m done with that.

I’m getting to where I’m happy with my body, I've let go of a lot of unnecessary people in my life, and I’m looking for a job that I’ll enjoy.

I’m on the road to a happier me and I couldn't be more proud of myself because at the end of the day, when I lay my head down to sleep; I can smile and say, “I haven’t given up.”

So to all those people that told me I’ll never amount to anything, to those that called me fat and said I needed to lose weight, to those that called me ugly, to the guy in middle school who gave me diet pills as a gag gift, to the girls that thought I couldn't hear them as they commented on how I dressed, to the teachers that sat by and did nothing as an 8 year old me was picked on….

......to all of you, I have one thing to say;

FUCK YOU! 

You didn't win, I made it and I’m going to keep on making it.

You’ll never win, I won’t let you.

I haven’t given up.