I love you;

It was a cold November night,
The air had a slight chill.
And as I walked down a dark alley,
Within, I felt a slight thrill.
You were my destination,
You were what I wanted most.
But the memories of the past,
Crept upon me like a ghost.
Frightened, I stopped and I waited a bit.
It didn't take long before the memories finally hit.
Us being introduced, you saying my name.
The first kiss we shared, me feeling no shame.
My parents disapproval, taking us for a spin.
Then trying to get where we once were again.
Me planning a way to show you my affection.
You saying we were heading in different directions.
My broken heart that not even I would touch.
The messages I reread that hurt me so much.
You reappearing in my life as if naught were wrong.
You winning me back by one simple song.
The night you cried and I held you tight.
I kissed you then and said it would be alright.
Us once again going our seperate ways.
Never lasting longer than a few days.
Then the day you showed up with a girl by your side.
The look in your eyes that said she held your heart while you held mine.
I stood in that dark alley and knew right then,
Given a chance I'd go back down that alley again.

It began and ended all too soon

I want something different.
I can't find happiness in anything anymore.
Even my writing.
And that's saying something.
I'm ready for a vacation.
Like..... NOW.