A realm unlike any other

First things first, in order to understand me, you have to abandon all prior knowledge of what you think you know about me. When you've done this, then you've made your first step into my world.

I'm like a clock on the wall. Not the digital kind, where it takes nothing more than a glance and you know what time it is. No, I'm more like the old fashioned kind. You have to really focus and pay attention before you know what time I have.


I'm like the ocean. The farther in you go, the deeper it gets. But go too far and you reach the drop off point. I have tides that go in and out. I can either be extremely calm and serene, or rough and out of control.


Breaking glass, watching it shatter, smiling as the tears fall down my face.
I've broken away from all that I know.
Finally.
I'm at peace with myself for the first time in a long time. I take a deep breath, stale air fills my lungs.
I know that what I've done will be for the best.
It might not get better right now,
maybe not tomorrow.
Maybe not even a month from now.
But eventually it will get better. It has to.
I've reached the utter bottom, you can't go any lower than where I am now.


I see a light, I feel the warmth from it.
It couldn't be....but it is.
It's the sun.
I'm in a beautiful field. It's the middle of June.
The wind is gently blowing, a welcome breeze on my face.
Drying away the tears that have become my only company for some time.


I remember all of the happy times I used to have.
The happy person I used to be.
I realize I'm not the same girl anymore.
I've changed, I can barley recognize myself anymore.
I look in the mirror every morning and I'm greeted by a stranger in the reflection.
Who are you?
How can I get back to the old me?
I miss being carefree.
I miss being without worry.
I miss being myself.


I will be free from this.


you can't begin to understand.
you can't begin to understand.
you can't begin to understand.
you can't begin to understand.
you can't begin to understand.


I'm nothing like I used to be.
But I'm trying to get back there.


Just wait around until I reach my destination.
please.