It's Christmas...yay.
I literally have ZERO spirit this year.
It's like I can't even focus on things nowadays.
I feel as though everything that I was taught growing up is being contradicted.
It's hard.
Just once, I want to feel carefree again, if even for but a moment, and I'd be thankful.
Fake smiles and laughs are no longer enough for me.
They can't hide what I'm becoming...
A heartless monster.
I've tried to make myself happy.
My friends and family have tried.
It's no use.
I just am....
Who knows, maybe it'll get better.
One can only hope.
But in a hopeless world, there's not much to hope for...
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